It’s Monday. I’m spending the week on a beautiful beach with my family and the skies are blue, the sun is shining and I’m watching the calm sea which seems to go on for miles.
The internet connection is shaky.
There’s hardly anywhere to plug my laptop in.
I forgot my precious notebook.
I’ve had an argument with my husband.
I feel a bit unwell.
I slept heavily but woke up feeling cold and fed up.
I haven’t done my morning meditation yet.
My hair is a mess and there’s no hot water until 5pm (it’s solar heated).
I’ve got nothing to say.
My plans for Tuesday’s Top Tips are scuppered as I realise I won’t be able to do them for the next 3 weeks, due to travelling and being away from the internet.
My phone’s battery has died and I need to recharge it every 5 minutes.
My brain feels scrambled and uninspired.
I’m supposed to start the week as I mean to go on.
I’d love to feel productive and like I’ve achieved something.
Perhaps I’m not cut out for this.
Perhaps running an online business with unreliable internet is a bad idea.
I’d rather listen to a podcast and lie in the hammock.
I’d rather read a book.
Maybe I’m not an entrepreneur at all.
This is too hard.
I should give up.
These are the thoughts spinning through my head as I trudge up the hill to the restaurant for breakfast and think to myself, I have to show up, I have to go online, I have to do all the social media stuff that goes with running a business and connecting with people and being consistent and available and offering help and being of service.
I remind myself that these self-sabotaging thoughts are normal. They happen with exhausting frequency and I know I’m not alone. That some days are harder than others. That my inner critic has shown up BIG TIME and is not about to let me go without a fight. That these thoughts that circle and spin are a symptom of fear and that I’m familiar with this process. That most of the time I can do things to get over myself and tell my IC to flap off and do something fun for a while (this is part of the inner critic work I do with my clients, after all).
I remind myself that these are the things my clients and I talk about all the time. The distractions, the procrastination, the avoidance. The fear.
I’m lucky. Lucky to be in this crazy, beautiful place and experience these days with my family. Lucky that my husband and eldest son get to go diving and my younger son is head deep into his phone, or Nintendo Switch or whatever and that I get this time to myself. To think. To ponder. To muse.
To get over myself! To be kind to myself.
So. How is your Monday panning out?
Maybe not as you planned and not as you hoped. And yet, you’re still here aren’t you?
Give yourself some credit for that.
I’m going to banish my inner critic to her perch and do the things that I know will nurture my soul. Some work, yes. Some meditation and definitely some podcasts in the hammock. I’ll get over my bad hair day (weeks, months) and ignore the shaky wifi connection and get some videos done because I love doing my videos and my mini trainings. Perhaps today’s will be all about getting over yourself, despite feeling a bit shit?
And I’ll keep looking out at the beautiful, blue sea and remember how very lucky I am.
I’d love to know how you’re doing today, let me know in the comments.
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PS The fella behind me in the photo is definitely not suffering any bad hair days!